Widowerhood: It's Been..Yeah...A Widowed Father Of 3...

 Yeah....Just read it. Hopefully, if you are in need of confirmation of all of the feelings in this moment if you are going through this, this helps you. May not help you now but maybe some day. @ those reading this who are in this first stage of realization that their spouse/partner is gone.  Published on 12/2/12 9:01 AM This is all me btw. @ this 'poem'. I use the term loosely 'cause I personally wouldn't call it that but I know some who would so... What Do I Do Now?/Co-Piloting with a Jewel I mean there are some things I am GOING TO DO so you can take the title rhetorically in some sense. I'm going breath. I'm going to take care of my kids. About those types of things I'm not on the fence. At first, I was a little unsure of what to do with these 'feelings' I have though. This deadly mixture of love, sadness and betrayal. I mean I'm super sad one minute and full of fond memories the next. Pissed off a little too. Yeah, I'm running the same ...

  This one is pretty self explanatory. It was written on the 10 year anniversary of the day I became widowed.  I may 'revisit' these times but I think that it's TRULY best for the raw emotions that I was feeling in real time to be read.  To be seen. I try to write in the moment. Again, there will be messy parts that I may or may not touch on here on this particular blog. Parts that if you saw the original one, you can fill in on your own.  Published on 11/15/22 4:28 PM 11/15/2022 It's been 10 years man. It's a couple of days shy of it anyway but it's here.  Wow. Let's just say that off the bat. All the folks who are reading this who are a friend, family member, whatever to Melissa, allow me extend my thoughts and prayers to you during this time if it still hits you in a way. I get it. As you suspect.  I guess for some of you, you are expecting some SUPER GLOOM AND DOOM POST here. There may be a little bit of sorrow in this post but I think you might be surp...

  I'm still not quite certain how I'm going to transfer blog posts over but here's another one. From more recent years. It's all real. I'm going to attempt to skip over some REALLY MESSY parts of these years but that may not be able to be helped. I'm going to do my best to try though. I think they are all important things in the grand scheme of things. Honestly.  Below is the date that this post was originally published.  Published on 9/4/21 8:23 AM Editor's note: This is a series (My Life Friday to Friday:) that I write that I NORMALLY don't publish or REMIX as I have MUCH bigger plans for it. It is important to me though, to release this piece that was written in real time because it was a super important event I want to share NOW. I usually recap things Friday to Friday. Why? My situation for the last 6 years hinged on Friday to Friday changes. Every Friday, the script would flip and an adjustment would need to be made to accomodate my partner, her ne...